I haven't picked the flowers. I haven't made the centerpieces. The announcements aren't printed. I don't know the colors of the bridesmaids' dresses. Or what my "theme" is. I don't know what will be the first dance song or what the cake looks like. I haven't even picked out THE dress.
See, I deleted my wedding board, engagement style photos, and cute baby announcement pins from Pinterest this week.
Now, I'm not saying it is a bad thing if you have a wedding board on Pinterest and it's the one with the most pins, or if you have a secret stash of wedding magazines with pages folded down.
This was just something that I needed to do.
Why? Because I don't even have THE guy yet.
I'm only in my twenties (pushing the mid's, but that's another rant for another time), which has been a really hard place to be if I can be honest. I mean shouldn't this be a fun time filled with adventure, late nights with friends, doing stupid stuff and taking random road trips? Why instead am I being bombarded by questions of my future and what I'm doing next, where I'm going or not going and is there someone special followed by well, why isn't there someone special?
How do you politely tell people to stop asking what you are going to do with your life?
I know they mean best, but I'm at that point where when something good happens I will let you know, believe me!
I'm at that point in my life where I can't get on Facebook without seeing engagement, wedding, or baby updates. Please don't hear me say that I am harboring bad feelings or having jealousy towards my friends who are about to be or already are married. I am always excited when they announce their plans and love celebrating with them and listening to their stories. They have reached that moment in their lives and it's awesome to watch a new journey take off. I'm just not there yet.
The main reason I deleted all my wedding pins? To guard my heart.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." -- Proverbs 4:23
Bottom line is that I'm at a different season in my life than some of my friends. This is the season that the Lord has me in. How long it's going to last is something that only He knows. But, I do know that the only way to fully be in this season and be happy at the same time is to trust the Lord.
Wherever I am, my purpose is to worship and give Him glory. That never changes, whether I'm single or married.
I want to fully be in this season: learning, loving and serving. In order to do that, I can't be worried about something or someone who isn't here yet. He is using this season to prepare me for future seasons.
He has written my story, He holds the future. I'm just reading it one page at a time.
The Lord knows my dreams, He knows my wishes and I'm sure He hears my prayers. I can't imagine that His plans for my life are not the absolute best. And as much as I wish I knew what tomorrow would bring, I'm learning to live in this season one day at a time. Letting Him prepare my heart for the future, what it may bring and who it may bring with it.
Now, off to look at pictures of puppies and places to travel on Pinterest.